In Coming...

hello people...
today is the last day of 2010...
so, i want to tell back what happen in my life in 2010...
hehehe...
first i would like to say that 2010 is the worst year of my 20th life...
hurmm...
many bad things happen on 2010...
flash back on earlier of this year...

things that makes me cry :
1. because of late Meera,
2. because i fight with my best friends,
3. my bracelet has broken
4. i lost my family's camera,
5. i was frame by other people saying i talk bad about them,
6. my result went very bad
7. i got a scold from my parents...

this year, i fight so badly with my bestfriend the late Meera, Isma, Keyna n Jannah...
it become a lot worse when late Meera gone forever leaving us here by ourselves...
i still cannot forgive myself on the day she's gone...
i regret everything that i done that day...
the day we were suppose to visit her at the hospital...
we shouldn't have gone to Melaka...
we waste many things there...
it was not fun at all...
the next day, the first thing i know that late Meera was gone...
it gave me a big shock...
i lost my way when i heard about that...
but thanks to all my course mate and other friends,
i manage to find my way back..

but then,
my fight with Isma, Keyna n Jannah got a lot worse...
especially with Isma...
but thankfully now my relationship with isma got a lot better..
hope we didn't fight again next year...

my year become a lot worse when the bracelet that i buy with late Meera, Keyna n late Meera's sis, Ema,
has broken...
i was very upset...
it seems that the bracelet has no use anymore because we are already apart...

other things i cried this year that i'm really upset is when i lost my family's camera...
it happens when i went to Terengganu with my class...
it was a class trip...
at first i was very happy...
then, on the way to Terengganu, i find that my camera has gone...
we tried to find it back...
but it was a failure...
i was suppose to be happy when i went there...
but it become my bad dream when i lost the camera...
i cry from that night we got to Terengganu till we go back to Terengganu...

things that upset me more is when other people frame me of talking bad about other people...
i really hate that...
i didn't do anything...
so,stop bugging at my place...

next is my result...
hurmmm...
actually i don't want to discuss about this...
it always makes me sad...
but my result have become worse each semester...
what should i do???
hurmmm...

lastly,
because i keep making trouble my parents especially my dad got mad at me...
i was very sad...
then, he pressure me like this...
i feels like running away...
there's one time i dream i ran away from them...
even though it was a dream,
i feel happy but on the mean time,
family are sad..
that's why i can't do that...
hurmmm...

ok..
enough of telling the bad things that happen this year...
i'll tell u about the good things that happen this year...

things that makes me smiles :
1. Melaka
2. happy with my sister
3. SHINee n korea
4. stay at hotel
5. hanging out with friends

at first,when late Meera passed away,i thought going to Melaka was a waste...
but after everything has settle,
i think going to Melaka was a relief...
even though it was not like all of us hope for,it was fun...
thanks to all who go...

one things for sure that is not making me sad is get together with my sisters...
when it comes to my sis,we got to do many things...
if u look at my pic,my smile with them n my smile with my friend is totally different...
i wonder why...
huhu...
that's the spirit of my sis...
i love them so much...
hehehe...

oh...
SHINee..!!!
this is the only things that making me always smile and have a new spirit in life...
even though i've not met them,
when i watch them,
i gain new spirit...
thanks SHINee...
i'll always support u...
other than that,
my friend introduce me to a korean friend...
they are very nice...
i love chatting with them...
especially
1. suyeon-sshi,
2. hye young-sshi
3. bommie unnie...
i love them so much even though we have never met...
hope to see u guys soon...

my other sweet memory is when my whole family went to Pulau Pinang n
my parents book us a room at a hotel...
it was so fun..
we go everywhere around Pulau Pinang...
it's been a long time since we go on vacation like that...
thanks papa...
thanks mama...
i love u...
talking about vacation,
papa said that he want to bring us to Japan...
i hope it will become true...
even though i really want to go to Korea tight now,
i think Japan is fun too...
because i love Japan...
hehehe...
hope we'll go there someday...

lastly,
this year,
my classmate n i have gone many places hanging out together...
1. we went visit late Meera together...
2. we go to reunion with our friends who have gone degree together n
meet our BEL lecturer...
3. we went to Terengganu...
even though i cry a lot when go there,
it was fun...
because we have each other...
4. we went eat with our ECOMAL lecturer...
this makes us become closer...

even though it was not much
but this are the best memory i have this year...
now i end with a video that i created myself according to what i write from the above...
please enjoy it...

My 2010

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

Once again I would like to wish birthday to my mom n my friend nyah...
ehehhe...
to my mom, I love u...
U r the best...
to my friend,nyah, i love u too n i miss u...
hope u get the best in your life...
^_^
that's all for this one...
annyeong~~

to NUR AZEEMA AZLAN... this is my answer... ^___^

1. Apa benda yang paling penting dalam hidup korang?

my laptop... ^___^

2. Benda yang terakhir korang beli menggunakan duit korang sendiri?

my laptop too... ^___^

3. Dimana tempat korang ingin melangsungkan perkahwinan korang dan tema perkahwinan korang nnti?

of course korea...kekeke~~~
tema msti ade purple...ehhehe...

4. Adakah korang sedang bercinta sekarang?

xpenah pon...huhu...

5. Berapa lama korang akan mencintai kekasih korang?

till the end of our life...huhu...

6. Dimana korang selalu berjumpa dengan kekasih korang?

mne nk taw...kapel pon x penah lg...huhu...

7. Novel / buku / majalah yang terakhir korang beli?

my e-pop...SHINee!!!hehehe...

8. Apakah nama penuh korang?

NUR SYAZWIN BINTI SHABUDIN

9. Antara mak dan ayah korang, yang mana korang lebih mesra?

my mom...hehehe...

10. Namakan orang yang korang betul-betul nak jumpa dalam hidup korang

of course SHINee...i love them... >.<

11. Adakah korang basuh baju korang sendiri?

same dgn ema nyer...huhu...

12. Dimanakah tempat yang korang betul-betul nak pergi?

yes...of course heaven... ^___^

13. Pilih salah satu, peluk atau cium?

erm...erm...

14. 3 tentang orang yang tag korang?

nice, caring, crazy...kekeke~~~

15. 5 benda yang korang sangat-sangat sayang dalam hidup korang?

laptop, handfon, bla bla bla...huhu..xtaw la... >_<

16. 5 lagu yang paling korang suka dan selalu dengar?

korean songs...WAJIB!!! hehehe...

17. Bila tarikh lahir korang dan kat mana korang sambut tahun lepas nyy?

12/09/1990 smbut kt kg...tp cam xde pape...huhu....taun lps nyer best...kn ema kn...hehehe...

18. 5 4 orang blogger yang korang nk tag
wany, ema, n all my sis...ehhehe...

ema, sye dh jwb soklan anda...hehehe...daaa~~~

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

hiya people...
i know it's late but merry christmas...
kekeke~~~
i don't celebrate christmas but to all my non-muslim friends,
i wish u a very happy christmas... i don't really want to say a lot...
so,
it think this is all for now...
see u on new year...
bye~~~

p/s : thinking of making some good pic... ^___^

Lee JinKi aka Onew

Yay!!!

i'm back...

even though i'm still down, i can't be down on my beloved birthday...

hahaha...

it's Onew SHINee birthday today...

Lee JinKi aka Onew... ^___^

i'm so happy for him too...

after MinHo SHINee birthday, now, Onew birthday...

by the way, Happy Birthday Onew...

kekeke~~~

i miss looking at your Onew Condition...

hope to see u do it again...

stay healthy n out of trouble...

lol..

keep doing the best performance...

love ur voice n love u too...

hehehe...

that's all for now...

see u again..

byee....

it's always the same

hi,guys...

today,i write again...

but i'm not happy today...

i'm crying...

T_T

why???

u ask why???

let me tell u...

my result was really bad...

i don't know what to do...

i feel like giving up...

please...

i need someone...

i need her to comfort me...

i can't think of anything else...

i think my mom was disappointed with me...

i didn't tell my dad yet...

but i've got a feeling that he'll scold me...

i really don't know what to do...

should i just stop study already and find work to do???

am i ready for the big world that is waiting for me???

i wish i've done better...

my other friends are really lucky because they don't have any repeat...

even my sister is getting all pass...

i wish i can be like them...

i wish i can be like my sister...

why am i so stupid???

i really can't take it this time...

if only one paper that i fail i don't care...

but i fail three paper...

and all of it was hard...

can i really do it again???

i was listening to SHINee song...

the one that i really like...

it's title is life...

when i hear this song,it's making me more sad but this song really can calm my heart...

i want to continue study...

i want to pursue my dreams...

i wish if i have a good result i can take myself and go to korea...

i want to meet my korean friends and especially SHINee who have made me happy after my friends has gone...

i wish i can do all this...

but i can't if i keep on failing...

SHINee, what would u do if you're in my place???

what should i do???

tell me...

support me...

i need u...

i need my family...

i need my friends...

='(

my favourite song...

SHINee - life

Saengil Chukka Hamnida

hi,guys...

i'm back again...

hehehe...

u must be wondering what i was going to post right??

especially for those who don't really understand korea...

hehehe..

Saegil Chukka Hamnida means happy birthday...

hehehe...

who's birthday is it today???

of course...

it's Choi MinHo from SHINee...

Choi MinHo... XD

i'm very happy today...

even though my result is coming out...

kekeke~~~

i know that i can't celebrate it with him (MinHo) but as a fan, i'm very happy to get to wish his bithday...

once again,i hope they'll come here to Malaysia...

but really, Happy Birthday, dear MinHo...

i hope u will always be happy with SHINee and keep doing the best performance with them...

take care of yourself and don't get sick...

hehehe...

as for that,i end my blog...

see u again...

annyeong...

Saranghae...

p/s : ema, don't forget to wish...hehehe... =D

SHINee Stars

Dubu Onew

SHINee World's smiling prince

Watch your steps! Don't always fall T.T

I Love (your name)! Waiting for the next one

Grow your love for children and they will love you too

Enthusiastic JongHyun

If you have shildren

I think you will be a good dad

Hope your dream to become a composer come true

Your high pitch is putting everyone in a daze

Fashionable Key

A camera-sensitive idol

Wondering what's your next style would be?

Your smile is gorgeous

Persistent Charisma Min Ho

The Ace of Dream Team Season 2

Nation's favourite appa

Your Charismatic Flame melts our hearts

Sweet Maknae Tae Min

Miss your 'mushroom hair'

Want to see your solo dances more

Your smile are mesmerizing

Never back down, we are always behind you guys!

Dedicated to Miss Nur Azeema Azlan =3

Love SHINee

SHINee World

SHINee...!!!

After I left this blog for four month...

Now I'm back with my new spirit...

Which is...

SHINee...!!!

Yay~~~

Weee~~~

Kyah~~~

Kekeke~~~

I've become too excited when it comes to SHINee...

Hehehe~~~

For now, I'll juz tell you who are the SHINee member only....

Hehehe~~~

The Leader...

Leader, Onew

The Lead Vocal

Bling Bling, JongHyun

The Unique Voice

Almighty Key, Key

The Rapper

Flaming Charisma, MinHo

The Lead Dancer

Maknae, TaeMin

Awww~~~

Aren't they cute???

Kekeke~~~

I LOVE THEM SO MUCH....

They're my favourite korean artist...

I hopw I can meet them someday....

That's all for now...

Hehehe~~~

Wanna know more about them???

Continue reading my blog....

Daaaa~~~~

Long time...

ello people...

long time no see..

it's the earlier of the month n i'm going back to sgmt in two days from nw...

hmmm...

i don't feel like going back...

wanna know y??

b'coz,after this i'm all alone...

there's no more meera or keyna to depend on...

what left is isma...

but i can only see her when i'm back to my room...

talkiing about room, i didn't get to stay at the same room like last sem...

i want that room...

isma is very lucky to get her room...

i've change to wing a...

but i still be in the 3rd floor...

what a bad place...

i miss my friends...

i want to meet them but i want to stay home too...

i don't know what to do...

hmmm....

talking about sgmt make i don't hv spirits anymore...

let's talk about other things...

the other day, i went to open read in one hour to be in malaysia book of record...

there's also a book fair...

usually in book fair i didn't get to buy any book...

but that day,my mom give money for me to buy books...

that's when i buy 4 type of manga...

hahaha...

it's the best day of my life...

there's more...

when my sis buy a novel, they got to get the writer's sign...

i'm the one who take the sign because my sis is so slow...

thet is where i ask my sis to put my name on it...

i'm so proud of it...

hahaha...

then the writer ask me many things...

but one thing that i like about the writer is that she's my senior in uitm sgmt...

that is when i think back my dream of becoming a writer like her...

i hope i can be like her one day...

hehehe...

oh yea...

yesterday a bug bit me...

because of that my left and right arm become red and itchy...

and the worst part is it goes up to my eyes...

thank god it heal today...

if not i might get an injection today...

i really hate injection...

btw, my work on my story is getting progress...

i've done one chapter...

i'll be posting the story when i've finish the second chapter...

hope u all can wait for it...

hehehe....

i think that's all for this month...

oh yea...

remember what i said last month about writing every week???

i'll start it...

i'll write back next week...

that's all for now...

starting this week, there' no more seramyu's song...

i'll put something else...

hehehe...

this is my laptop background...it's so cute...hahaha...

from left : seong-woo, tae-yung, mi-nam/mi-nyu, jeremy...

matta ne...

after a month...

hello everyone... long time no see... hehehe...

i'm back now... i'm very happy to get to stay at home this 1month...

but now, it left only 1month to stay at home... hmmm...

first i wanna say, i miss my friend the most...

idk whether they miss me or not... hmmm...

ah, i juz remember someting...

actually, i dream of late meera yesterday...

she told me not to be sad...

when i look at her, she is actually sad herself...

what should i do??? hmmm...

actually i juz came back from cleaning my teeth and it hurt a lot...

i can't talk... waaa....!!! T_T

this week i'll go back to my village for a few days...

then i'll be back b4 10th Jun...

bcoz my final result will come out on that day...

thinking about this makes me really nervous...

i hope that i pass all papers...

i really don't care about the pointer...

what i care right now is i want all papers to pass...

i don't want any repeat... i really can't take it...

owh yea... i almost forgot to say that i've got college for next sem...

that is one thing that makes me happy...hehehe...

i'm very bored right now...

u know, i've already finish watch 1drama, 6anime and 7comic in 1month...

i wanna watch more...

but there's no more that really attract me...hmmm...

what to do???

i'm going to be crazy if thing go on like this... hahaha...

i think that's all 4 this month...

i think that starting next month i'm going to write every week...

i'll try to write when i got time...

by then, see u... bye...

song for this month is:

Chikyuu iro wa Salad Time

p/s:there's no lyrics this time... sorry... juz read under the vdeo... so sorry...

CaN'T WaiT...!!!

hello everyone...!!!it's been a long time...i'm starting to gain back my spirit...but u know what???every time i've got back my spirit...there must be something happening...i really hate that... =(
but i try my best to improve myself...idk whether i'm improving or not...no one ever commented on how i act...so, i juz do what i think is best for me n other people...
btw, i've other new interest...hehehe...
u must think that i'm very late for this thing..but if i'm not late for thing like this...then it's not the real me..hahahhaa...
back to what i told u earlier...my new interest is i now like to read manga in the internet...waaahhhh...!!!
i'm so proud of myself...hahahaa...
you must be thinking that i'm crazy...hahahaha...
but that's what i like now...i don't open other thing except for the manga...i don't often open my facebook n myspace anymore...as well as game...i don't play it anymore...wanna know why??
b'coz someone make me hate juz by looking at those websites that i told u earlier...i really want to delete all the account...but when i think back about my old friends that i found at those websites...i didn't do it...stop it...stop it...stop it...
i don't want to talk sad things in this month...back to the manga...
i've read a few manga n it's very interesting...until today, i've read full moon joker, kaichou wa maid-sama, hot gimmick n ouran high school host club...
i've already read full moon joker before this...this is the first manga's book that i buy with my own money n i really like this story...no matter how many times i read this book...i'll never get bored...especially when i see the hero...i really dream of that type of hero myself...not too kind and gentle...but has his own way treating the girl he like...waaa....!!!
when n where can i get this type of person...???dream...i can always dream to hv a better life...but to get it to be real...it'd be in a dream also...hahaaa...
next is kaichou wa maid-sama...this manga is diffrent than other manga...the heroin is really powerful at school...but she had a secret where she work at a cafe as a maid...no one at her school knows about her work..but along the story...certain people starting to know about her work and she become trouble when the hero knows bout her work...the hero is really handsome, genius and strong...he's crazy n always talk non-sense to everyone especially when the heroin and the hero is in front of erveryone...but he is very serious when he is alone with the heroin...they r very sweet couple even though they didn't admit their relationship...i've already read the whole manga that was to in the websites...but it's not finish yet...can't wait to read more...hehehe...
after that, i read hot gimmick...this story is full of romance...but it's very complicated story...i really don't know why i like this story...hahaha...
lastly,ouran high school host club...at first i watch the anime...then i discover that it has a manga...so, i read it...i didn't finish read it yet...but still it has the very best story line...it's not bored to read this story...b'coz everytime i read it, i always laugh...it's really funny...even though it is actually a love story...but it is full of friendship, family quality, siblings n of course love...the heroin is really the innocent type...hahaa...
but unlike the heroin...the hero is the childish type...but he is very sweet when it comes to the heroin..but he is always easily tease by their friend...hahaha...
ok2...enough of manga...i tell u more on my next post....let's move on my life...
my life...hmmm...whathv happen in my life...it's not that i hate my life...but i feel like everybody says that i'm very troublesome...hmmm...
am i really troublesome to people...???anyone...please answer me...hmm....
other than that, actually i'm having my final exam right now...this friday is my last paper...my sister finish on this wednesday...i envy her...huhu...
btw, i can't wait for it to finish...i want to go back to my village n relax my mind...this semester is really troublesome like me...hahaha...
to my beloved friends, i've buy a present for you this semester...b'coz i'm afraid that we can't meet next sem...so,i'd buy it for u guys...please look foward to it..hehehe..
to my late friend,hw r u??hope u'll be alright...i'll always pray 4 u... oh yea...i think i'll go visit u this month...depends on time... i really miss u... =(
ok...that's all 4 now...i'll be writing again next month...again,please watch over me and my blog...bye...matta ne...
oh yea...i really don't know what song 4 this month...but i think this song is perfect...please enjoy it...

Seishun no Shoumi Kigen




That feeling of dreamers is nearing
Love love's mark is flying over
The access to the heart
Giving the feeling of dreamers
The success of this dream season

By only loving one person,
You want to see the secrets they have
But if you're not better than
Great, then you won't survive

Polish your skills to stand out
In this world, in order to flap your wings
Roller blade, unicycle
Carry yourself like an elite

Grab at the chance of forelock
Happy goddess, Get!
A Youthful Term of Enjoyment while it is certain

That feeling of dreamers is nearing
When you were children, you saw dreams become reality
Give the feeling of dreamers to those who long
For this dream season to never end

That feeling of dreamers is nearing
Love love's mark is flying over
The acess to the heart
Giving the feeling of dreamers
The success of this dream season

p/s:sorry...i don't hv time to do it properly this time...hehhee...

Soooooooo......

Tireddddd......

It's almost the end of semester...

And I'm sooooooo tireeedddddd.......

I always sleep...

That makes me most tired...

Yesterday I hv 2 run 2.4km...

Really long way 2 run...

What a day yesterday...

Today I hv a class at da evening...

I thought our lecturer would do any quiz...

When I go,we juz discuss about our homework...

If I know,I wouldn't come today...

It's not b'coz I'm lazy/anything,it's juz that my whole body really hurt especially my leg...

Tomorrow I hv 2 go 4 diba's week...

Da day after that,we hv a dinner...

Next week also we hv a dinner...

We hv 2 finish 2 assignment...

1 due next wednesday...

Da other 1 due on next friday...

Oh god...

Please help me...

I'm very busy with my test...

Almost every day i hv a test/quiz...

I feel like scream...

ARGHHHH...!!!

So tiredddddddddddd............

I wanna go home...

Don't wanna b here anymore...

TIREDDDDDD............!!!!!!!!!

To end this tired, let's listen to this song...

It always make me wanna dance...

hehehe...

Set me Free...

The sun doesn't forget that it's morning again.
Everybody in the class looks
forward to a dazzling summer vacation
From the world of mail, we jump into the sky
That is the Legendary Garden of Rainbow
Because of that, Set Me Free
A journey is a fellow traveler. Buying and seeing thngs
Even more, Set Me Free
Having day dreams of the brand names waiting for us
My pupils become points

Europe's forests and old castles
Even mysteries are modernly woven into a stained glass window.
Antiquities! Antiquities! Aah! We're alive!
The true appearance can not be seen.
Invitation Please
Doki Doki Doki
Usagi! Over there are the lights of Paris!

Honto ni Gomenasai...

I really don't know why...

It's been like almost 1 month since she's gone...

n my life is really miserable...

I've done so many bad things...

Xpecially 2 my friends...

n also my family...

It's not like I want to do it...

But it happen on a wrong time...

I wanted 2 say "I'm sorry" but I can't...

Why???

I want people 2 understand me...

But I can't say it all out...

WHY???

I hate myself...

I want 2 go back to my old self...

I want 2 be someone who didn't know anything about this world...

I really hate what I am right now...

On this post I want to apologize to certain people...

Da 1st person is my family...

Sorry dat I said I hate u guys...Gomen...

Sorry dat I don't contact u guys...Gomen...

Sorry dat I get angry 2 u guys...Gomen...

Jann

Sorry if I've ever talk bad things 2 u...Gomen...

Sorry if I've done something dat u didn't like...Gomen...

Sorry if I ever shout to u...Gomen...

Keyna

Sorry if I can't help u...Gomen...

Sorry if I make u 2 hate me...Gomen...

Sorry if I ever shout 2 u...Gomen...

Lastly...

Da most important person dat I want 2 say sorry is Isma...

I know lately dat I've been bad 2 u...

I know dat I've make u mad at me...

I know dat I can't really say this 2 u...

But...

I'M REALLY SORRY if I've ever hurt ur feeling...Gomen...

I'M REALLY SORRY if I make u mad...Gomen...

I'M REALLY SORRY if I've been bad 2 u...Gomen...

After dis,I know most of u might not want 2 b friend wit me...

It's ok...

I'm not going 2 make u if u don't want 2...

One thing I want u 2 know...

I really don't want 2 lose u...

But I'll always pray for ur happiness...

I'll always try 2 b there 4 u if u have problem...

I'll try 2 improve myself 2 b a better person...

I hope that u'll understand dis feeling...

Please forgive me...

I'll do anything 4 u if u forgive me...

Maaf...

Sorry...

Gomen...

That's all I can say...

This is for you...

Mitsumeteite yo/Keep Watching Me

Don't cry dear friends
A little longer like this
Without saying anything more
I want to see the mystery of tears
The season of the innocence of a girl who plays
The answer we believe in should exist there

Don't cry my love
Now, don't cry
Now, don't call me
I want to hide the secret of tears
The season of the innocence of a girl who sulks
While I can't even breathe, I am looking at you

Don't cry dear friends
A little longer like this
Please keep watching only me
I want to keep watching you
Please, until the world stops
Riding the ship of love that crosses that star
Tomorrow should be strong

Because tomorrow is becoming strong

Word 4 friends...

Given a bouquet of crimson roses
The star coloured Scan Lights spin
It's brilliant and clear
That Scene, this Scene
It's dazzling, we finally can stand

Alone, alone, from here on we walk...
just us
If we passed each other on some street corner...
you
would you notice me?
You'd notice me right?
Thank you
Thank you for watching me
What supported me was you

Thank you
Thank you for these few years
You've taught me lovely things

Our shaky knees on that first day...
Tears and sweat get into my eyes
Again I cry
Sparking, fighting, embracing each other
I'll never forget
That's the truth

Alone, alone, to search for a new dream, just us
If wherever, whenever we meet, you'd...
Would you still give me your love?
You'd still give me your love right?
What supported me was you

This is irreplaceable, our memorial day