Honto ni Gomenasai...

I really don't know why...

It's been like almost 1 month since she's gone...

n my life is really miserable...

I've done so many bad things...

Xpecially 2 my friends...

n also my family...

It's not like I want to do it...

But it happen on a wrong time...

I wanted 2 say "I'm sorry" but I can't...

Why???

I want people 2 understand me...

But I can't say it all out...

WHY???

I hate myself...

I want 2 go back to my old self...

I want 2 be someone who didn't know anything about this world...

I really hate what I am right now...

On this post I want to apologize to certain people...

Da 1st person is my family...

Sorry dat I said I hate u guys...Gomen...

Sorry dat I don't contact u guys...Gomen...

Sorry dat I get angry 2 u guys...Gomen...

Jann

Sorry if I've ever talk bad things 2 u...Gomen...

Sorry if I've done something dat u didn't like...Gomen...

Sorry if I ever shout to u...Gomen...

Keyna

Sorry if I can't help u...Gomen...

Sorry if I make u 2 hate me...Gomen...

Sorry if I ever shout 2 u...Gomen...

Lastly...

Da most important person dat I want 2 say sorry is Isma...

I know lately dat I've been bad 2 u...

I know dat I've make u mad at me...

I know dat I can't really say this 2 u...

But...

I'M REALLY SORRY if I've ever hurt ur feeling...Gomen...

I'M REALLY SORRY if I make u mad...Gomen...

I'M REALLY SORRY if I've been bad 2 u...Gomen...

After dis,I know most of u might not want 2 b friend wit me...

It's ok...

I'm not going 2 make u if u don't want 2...

One thing I want u 2 know...

I really don't want 2 lose u...

But I'll always pray for ur happiness...

I'll always try 2 b there 4 u if u have problem...

I'll try 2 improve myself 2 b a better person...

I hope that u'll understand dis feeling...

Please forgive me...

I'll do anything 4 u if u forgive me...

Maaf...

Sorry...

Gomen...

That's all I can say...

This is for you...

Mitsumeteite yo/Keep Watching Me

Don't cry dear friends
A little longer like this
Without saying anything more
I want to see the mystery of tears
The season of the innocence of a girl who plays
The answer we believe in should exist there

Don't cry my love
Now, don't cry
Now, don't call me
I want to hide the secret of tears
The season of the innocence of a girl who sulks
While I can't even breathe, I am looking at you

Don't cry dear friends
A little longer like this
Please keep watching only me
I want to keep watching you
Please, until the world stops
Riding the ship of love that crosses that star
Tomorrow should be strong

Because tomorrow is becoming strong

Word 4 friends...

Given a bouquet of crimson roses
The star coloured Scan Lights spin
It's brilliant and clear
That Scene, this Scene
It's dazzling, we finally can stand

Alone, alone, from here on we walk...
just us
If we passed each other on some street corner...
you
would you notice me?
You'd notice me right?
Thank you
Thank you for watching me
What supported me was you

Thank you
Thank you for these few years
You've taught me lovely things

Our shaky knees on that first day...
Tears and sweat get into my eyes
Again I cry
Sparking, fighting, embracing each other
I'll never forget
That's the truth

Alone, alone, to search for a new dream, just us
If wherever, whenever we meet, you'd...
Would you still give me your love?
You'd still give me your love right?
What supported me was you

This is irreplaceable, our memorial day